Pity Party

With boot camp, we don't just attend Tuesday's and Thursday's and call it done. We have homework. Yes I said homework. Our homework this week is in 3 parts---
1. 3 extra cardio workouts during the week
2. Food log-we have been tracking our food like I mentioned in my last post. Well this week we need to focus on our weakness...again, I'll do that as soon as I can figure out how.
3. Read this post,  http://www.lakenonabootcamp.com/1/post/2011/11/the-power-of-resentment.html  and focus on the past to find out WHY I am where I am.

So instead of just thinking about WHY. I decided to blog it. After reading Lauren's post, I was really glad I didn't fall under the resentment category. I don't care if you are skinnier than me, it's all the same at the end of the day. But I sit here trying to figure out why I am overweight. Here's my list...

1. I gave birth to 3 children. (Raising the oldest that I didn't give birth to is probably making me the fattest)
2. I love junk food.
3. I have hypothyroid.
4. I do not have time to workout with taking care of my kids and the house work.
5. I am a people pleaser and will say yes to someone before I think about what it will do to me.


So let's go over my list.

1. I gave birth to 3 children. Yep. Katie. You did. That was the plan. I guess I could be grateful I didn't get pregnant right after my 2nd baby....oh wait. I did!

2. Junk food. Why can't I say no to junk food? It's like that chocolate in my cupboard is taunting me and saying "haha fatty you know you want me". So I usually give in. Granted since last Monday I have not and that is HUGE for me.

3. Hypothyroid. I like to think of this as my "EXCUSE". I am fat because I can't lose weight because my body isn't allowing it to happen. I can use this for so many things. I do. Why? I am on medication, a synthetic thyroid, Synthroid. Is it helping me? My levels are good, but I don't feel that way.

4. No time. Really, I sometimes think that is 100% true. I am busy with 4 kids, helping in school, house, cooking...etc.! Time to make time. Boot camp is ME time.

5. I need to say no. Plain and simple NO! Working on that one...lol Saying yes to people takes away MY time and it's hurting me.

That's it! I am over my Excuses. No more excuses! I have 4 kids. I need to help my addiction to junk food. I have hypothyroid. I will find time and will say no when I can't physically do something for someone else. It's about me and how I feel and look.

If I feel good, I know I can look good!